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04 November 2007 @ 07:24 pm
Here's the thing: I don't think I can finish NaNo this year. I know it's only day four and Never Say Die! and all of that, but really? I know that I can hit 50k in 30 days. I've done it several times. This November, however, is a tough one, and not just because of the kickboxing training and work and doctor's appointments and things like cooking and cleaning and laundry and needing to get my car repaired in a really, really big way.

There's also helping my mother-in-law. Helping my own mom. Dad's memorial service.

I may finish NaNo, but it's quite likely I won't. What I really need to avoid is letting this brand me, in my own eyes, as a failure.* I'll still write every day. I will still rediscover the joy of doing so - which was, in point of fact, the main reason for my foray into NaNoLand this year. I'll flex and build those muscles and become a better writer - mayhap even a good one.

So there it is.

*though I really worry that all of you will see me as a failure. Silly or no, there it is.I never said I'd be sensible about all of this.
I feel: gloomygrumblish
Bird on a Wing: Lady Come Downcaragana_leaves on November 5th, 2007 12:43 am (UTC)
Honey, I ain't even STARTING that thing this year. I KNOW I'd fall flat on my face. Don't feel bad. NOBODY percieves this as a failure.
Silvie: [Tutu] Writingsilverfyshxin on November 5th, 2007 01:29 am (UTC)
Hahaha, the last time I did Nano, I didn't even hit 10K. I was thinking of it this year, but I decided to go for another high-stress writing thing instead.
Andrewquueer on November 5th, 2007 01:48 am (UTC)
oh shushup.
mistress_kathmistress_kath on November 5th, 2007 04:10 am (UTC)
You do all this amazingly cool stuff that most of us can only dream of...I think I can safely speak for the universe at large when I say that NO ONE sees you as a failure!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fjordhopper: Brisco/Bowler Heroesfjordhopper on November 5th, 2007 10:23 am (UTC)
There is a time to do things and a time to let go of them. (wait...isn't there a song in that?) Seriously, with what you've just been through, you need time to recharge and get your life back together again. Letting go of NaNo, is not failing, it is just acknowledging that you need a break, (Which you very much deserve!!! and need!!!) and that there are other things in your life right now that deserve your time and attention. I think you are doing the right thing.
harpiegirl4: inconceivable!harpiegirl4 on November 5th, 2007 01:08 pm (UTC)
Not finish Nano? How could you do this to me??? I was really counting on you and now you're going to let me down? How will I breathe? How will I sleep? My whole world is crumbling!*

I love you, silly girl. I'm so dazzled that you're bravely facing the Nanomonster this year after all that's happened and is happening, and that you can write TWO words, never mind 50,000. Even more dazzled that you're throwing yourself into kickboxing like this... ever-strengthening both body and mind. You are such an inspiration. So cut the crap. ;)

*Sorry, but you really did walk right into that one! How could I not?
Ratesjul: brain spinningratesjul on November 5th, 2007 06:51 pm (UTC)
Dearling, you could finish nano with negative words and we'd still not think of you as a failure.


And if you feel that badly about it you can have half my words.
Mairearanturas on November 8th, 2007 10:48 pm (UTC)
Having decided that I'm a way better reader than I will ever be a writer, I admire anyone who even attempts the nano thing....