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13 December 2003 @ 10:40 pm
What I Want (the selfish version)  
... selfless version to follow sometime in the near future.

I want to be fit. I want to shed the five pounds I've put back on and then some.

I want a good joust horse. Really. Desperately. I want one that has the right temperment, and I want it early enough that I can really put in some serious training time.

I want to be able to move like Lewis when there's a weapon in my hand. Gods, what I wouldn't give to be that gorgeous, that capable and assured.

I want time to write. Just a solid, uninterrupted block wherein I could tear apart my crappy first draft and rework it without doctors appointments, rehearsals and work getting in the way.

I want my psoriasis GONE. Forever.

I want to NOT look ridiculous playing opposite a Robin Hood far,far younger than I.

I want to go back to school. I want to have the money and the leisure to do so. There is so much I want to learn, so much I want to know...

I want to travel.

I want to feel as if I matter.

I want to make a difference.

I want to be able to wear a little black dress and look frelling hot.

I want to be a good singer. A really good singer, even.

I want to be more than a mediocre pennywhistle player.

I want a baby. Maybe.

I want to be free of the nagging fears of pregnancy.

I want to find the spark I lost, somewhere in the shadows of the years, that kept me going, that made me feel that I was a good writer, that I would succeed in my creative endeavours.

I want to stop whinging and start doing.

I want magic.
I feel: restlessrestless
moileaflette on December 14th, 2003 11:35 pm (UTC)
*poof* ok, I'm working on them... so far I've made you feel like you matter (because you do), made you make a difference (because you have) and made you not look ridiculous playing opposite robin hood (because you never did). I'll try to finish up the others later. ;)