Kel (ladyjoust) wrote,

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What I Want (the selfish version)

... selfless version to follow sometime in the near future.

I want to be fit. I want to shed the five pounds I've put back on and then some.

I want a good joust horse. Really. Desperately. I want one that has the right temperment, and I want it early enough that I can really put in some serious training time.

I want to be able to move like Lewis when there's a weapon in my hand. Gods, what I wouldn't give to be that gorgeous, that capable and assured.

I want time to write. Just a solid, uninterrupted block wherein I could tear apart my crappy first draft and rework it without doctors appointments, rehearsals and work getting in the way.

I want my psoriasis GONE. Forever.

I want to NOT look ridiculous playing opposite a Robin Hood far,far younger than I.

I want to go back to school. I want to have the money and the leisure to do so. There is so much I want to learn, so much I want to know...

I want to travel.

I want to feel as if I matter.

I want to make a difference.

I want to be able to wear a little black dress and look frelling hot.

I want to be a good singer. A really good singer, even.

I want to be more than a mediocre pennywhistle player.

I want a baby. Maybe.

I want to be free of the nagging fears of pregnancy.

I want to find the spark I lost, somewhere in the shadows of the years, that kept me going, that made me feel that I was a good writer, that I would succeed in my creative endeavours.

I want to stop whinging and start doing.

I want magic.
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