[My name is]: Kelly. Kel. Mari. Angel (that's what my husband calls me)
[in the morning i am]: crawling out of bed to feed the furry little monsters.
[love is]: a constant surprise.
[i dream about]: past lives. stories. joust anxieties.
-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do you notice first?]: physically? smile. otherwise? intelligence.
[last person you slow danced with]: Don. he gets jealous if I slow dance with other men, which is sweet but a bit maddening.
-W H O-
[do you have a crush on?]: cute guitar boy, only not so much since I've become friendlier with him. JL. rawr. handsome, funny, smart as all get out, and those blue, blue eyes.
[easiest to talk to]: Mom, Kriti.
-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: no, since I was too shy to be friends with guys for so long.
-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone]: my Mom.
[hugged]: my immensely supportive husband.
[you instant messaged]: ratis.
[you laughed with]: again, my husband. I only wish I could remember what it was about.
-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[could you live without the computer]: I think I could. I lived without it for so very long. I've only been on the internet for a couple of years, and IM for one.
[what's your favorite food?]: the tasty stuff. I LOOOOOOOOVE all the things I shouldn't have. Potatoes. Bread. Mocha cake with white chocolate mousse filling.
[whats your favorite fruit?]: Macintosh apples, fresh off the tree
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: Emotional. Physical you can push aside, and even if you can't you know its going to die down eventually. Emotional? Who can find the end in sight?
[trust others way too easily?]: I do. It's how my heart got broken so utterly.
-N U M B E R-
[of times i have had my heart broken? ]: Once, big time. Oh, he tore me apart. then there's the one that still makes me wonder....
[of hearts i have broken?] : Not a one.
[of boys i have kissed?] : it's pathetic. three. why did no one want to kiss me? Oh wait, that's right.. 'cause I'm plain and not all that interesting.
[of girls i have kissed?] : as a lover? none. I'm still curious, though.
[of drugs taken illegally?] : zero. again... boring.
[of tight friends?] : a handful.
[of cd's that i own?] : around 150
[of scars on my body?] : one on the inside of my left knee, from falling on a tree stump in the swamp. one on the inside of my lip, from taking a lance to the face in rehearsal this year. one on my left thumb, a mask-making accident. strangely, I think that's it.
[of things in my past that i regret?] : not letting my grandmothers know how much I loved them before they died. not having the confidence to kiss more men. not knowing what its like to feel completely beautiful. that I didn't work harder and choose a more challenging major in college. that I let fear keep me from doing so many things. that I didn't focus on writing as a career a decade ago. gods and goddesses, I am a seething mass of regrets.
[i know]: a form of combat not commonly practice for several hundred years.
[i want]: to believe in my talent, and have publishers believe in it too.
[i have]: a husband I probably don't deserve.
[i wish]: that my skin would clear up forever. it's so damned selfish, I know.
[i hate]: to see my friends hurting.
[i miss]: the fleeting confidence of my early twenties; feeling I have talent.
[i fear]: that I'll never be published. that I'll never be worth anything.
[i hear]: Isabeau purring.
[i search]: for the lost confidence of my youth.
[i love]: Don. My girls. My friends.
[i ache]: deep in my heart. every autumn. every time I look in a mirror.
[i care]: so very much.
[i always]: wish I were more.
[i dance]: when I'm alone.
[i cry]: at movies, at books, at my friends pain... and sometimes, on the floor, cheek pressed to the boards, feeling as if I'll be ill, my sobs are coming so hard.
[i do not always]: believe the nice things people say about me.
[i write]: nowhere near as well as I desire to.
[i can usually be found]: daydreaming.
[i need]: to find a way to believe in myself.
[have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing]: No. Boring and pathetic, remember?
[if so, when and with who]: n/a.
[favorite place to be kissed?]: nape of the neck. On the lips. on the kissing bridge, where Don asked me to marry him.
[have you ever been caught "doing something"]: nope
[wuss]: tell me about it.
[druggie]: "boring and pathetic." 'nuff said.
[gang member]: well, I'm a jouster....
[daydreamer]: oh, yes.
[freak]: so my husband says
[brat]: gracious, no.
[goody-goody]: yeah. a bit.
[angel]: only to my husband
[devil]: no. bleh, me.
[friend]: I hope so.
[talkative]: usually when nervous.
[intelligent]: I wish.
[impacted you the most spiritually]: I really have no idea. My sister, maybe.
[wish you saw more often]: Inga.
[wish you could meet]: Kelley.
[most sarcastic]: Kelley
[wish you knew better]: several of them; there's too many I've lost touch with
[knows you best]: right now? Kel.
[best outlook on life]: Monica
[most paranoid]: Alen
[sweetest]: Chris, in his own way.
[your best feature (personality)]: Warmth.
[your biggest flaw (personality)]: Self-doubt.
[most annoying thing you do]: see above.
[biggest mistake you've made this far]: my trepidation.
[describe your personality in one word]: self-deprecating
[the physical feature for which you are most often complimented]: my smile
[person you regret sleeping with]: Paul, my first, because he cheated on me and shattered my heart.
[a smell that makes you smile]: vanilla.
[a country you'd like to visit]: Ireland.
[a drink you order most often]: Diet Coke.
[a delicious desert]: apple crisp
[a book you highly recommend]: "Bellwether" by Connie Willis.
[the music you prefer while alone]: Upbeat, traditional.Something I can sing along with, or dance to, or pull out my bodhran and play along with.
[your favorite band]: Great Big Sea.
[a film you could watch over and over]: A Little Princess (Cuaron version)
[a TV show you watch regularly]: Used to be 'Farscape.' now? um... 'Angel.' 'Smallville' 'Queer Eye for the Straight Guy'(*psst!* Kyan must be straight!).
[you live in a(n)]: first floor apartment.
[your cologne or perfume]: tea rose or vanilla rose oil.
[under your bed or in your closet you hide]: at least one of the kitties
[something important on your night table]: the other kitty, knocking my alarm clock to the floor