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07 March 2005 @ 01:03 pm
Phototherapy and random thought  
Most of you know that I have weekly phototherapy appointments for my psoriasis. For a few months this winter, Thursday evening appointments meant encountering a certain patient. I don't know her name. What I do know is that she has psoriasis only on her hands and feet. Thus, she wasn't in a booth, but got to use that nifty little device that targets just those extremeties. Every Thursday I would hear the same thing: how she picked at the plaques, how they were red, shouldn't the nurse cut down on the light time, etc. Then she began to talk about needing a handicapped parking permit so that she would not have to walk any distance to get into the doctor's office, or her place of work.

I don't mean to trivialize her discomfort. Honestly, I don't. I have psoriasis over a far greater portion of my body. I know just how bad it can be, and how much worse it is for many others. What tipped the scales for me was when she said "I wish everyone had to go through this, so they would now how I feel."

Really? I would never wish this on anyone. Ever.

Anyway, that led me to thinking. If ever a genie popped out of a bottle and offered me three wishes, the first on my list would be (and I've known this for a long time) for my psoraisis to be cured and gone forever.

But what if that wish was conditional? "You will be healed, but someone else will suffer." Even if it was a truly terrible person, I don't think I could do that.

Which of course led me to other wishes: wealth, fame, possessions, whatever. What if these all hinged on certain conditions? You gain wealth, someone else knows a life of poverty.

I just... maybe I'm just a wimp. I'd still tell that genie to sod off.
Goddessavhi on March 7th, 2005 01:47 pm (UTC)
Gosh, I can't stand that type of person. The "you can't POSSIBLY" understand how much I'm suffering, even if the person isn't even half as badly off.

Yeah, I'm with you. If it were contingent on someone elses suffering......I'd most likely not take the wishes.

However......right about now there are some people I'd have to think long and hard.

I can dream, ya know. :)
Stealth Chaos Butterfly: brilliant ; beyond wordsbunnymcfoo on March 7th, 2005 02:10 pm (UTC)
.....and I think that makes you brave. *snug*
Valeria Ottturtleott on March 7th, 2005 02:23 pm (UTC)
Be careful what you ask for....
I learned a VERY long time ago about the "unspoken" part of wishes and prayers. It seems that when one wishes for something we don't often think of the backlash effect on others. How incredibly intuitive and brilliant you are to have become aware of such things.....
Mairearanturas on March 7th, 2005 03:56 pm (UTC)
You're certainly not a wimp -- you're someone who cares about other people, even those you may not know, and realizes that the world does not, in fact, revolve around you. That's a great way to be.
Helensilawenyai on March 7th, 2005 05:08 pm (UTC)
Good for you. Kelly, you're my idol.

...Except I'd be selfish and tell that genie to cure you the hell anyway. *hugsquish*